Posts in Category: know thyself

Authenticity vs. Anonymity

For a while I’ve been wanting to talk about things of the soul, speak authentically, and share my story. But when I created Owl Refinery, it was to create a place where I could do this anonymously — I didn’t want my name attached to it. In fact, I was close to just picking an alter ego and blogging under her name instead. (I like the idea of Stella or Penelope.) That said, I feel like I’m always back and forth about this so here are some of my reasons for currently choosing to speak anonymously:

  1. I value privacy. I’m a very private person and only share my heart with my inner circle. I don’t want people who I don’t have personal relationships with to know what’s going on in my life. 
  2. I want to draw a line between personal and professional. The lines between personal and professional are constantly blurring, but there are certain things that I’d prefer to speak about in private rather than sharing with everyone. 

And then there’s part of me who wants more alignment and authenticity in my life. So here’s in favor of authenticity.

  1. I want to be a complete person. Currently I have a professional fashion blog that deal with things more style oriented and this blog for things of the soul. I read blogs from women like Danielle LaPorte, Brene Brown, and even Elizabeth Banks and I yearn to be able to merge my identities in one place and be a complete person. Like the quote from Virginia Woolf above, I want to tell the truth about my life. 
  2. I want to own my ideas. It’s important for me to get recognition for the work that I do and being able to put a face to a name would allow me to have ownership of my ideas online. 
  3. I have an I’m a Mormon video coming out and I want to post it here. Back in November, the I’m a Mormon folks came to Seattle to follow me around for 2 days to create an I’m a Mormon campaign on me. And when it comes out, I really want to be able to share it here. 
Do you blog authentically or anonymously? Or have you found a way to happily marry both?

What you loved to do when you were young.

Dr. Christiane Northrop is a doctor of holistic health – an OB-GYN – and one of my favorite authors. Several times I’ve heard her speak about how if you need to come back to yourself or find something that nurtures you, or something you love, to think of something you used to do when you were a young girl of 10 or 11 before you had your period. Time and time again I’ve thought about this advice and come up short. I wanted to be an actress, singer, and model when I was a kid. Nothing particularly revealing about that.

But then over New Years it hit me.

I took a line from I Am A child of God and ran with it. Considering I used a Bic pen, our turned it pretty good and after sharing it on Instagram I got some pretty good feedback.

But I didn’t think anything if it until later that night, when Chris Northrup’s advice started ringing in my ears and my “a ha!” moment hit me.

When I was in grade six, my class had a student teacher who decided to add calligraphy to the curriculum. She drew fancy letters on the blackboard, teaching us about nib height and the proper 45° pen angle and each of us inner city kids got our own calligraphy pen and practice notebook. And I took like it to a fish in water.

Something you loved to do when you were 10 or 11? Bingo.

Though I’ve barely given calligraphy a second thought over the years, in my time of need, what I needed came to the surface and gave me hope, purpose and joy. Since then I’ve been taking favorite song lyrics or quotes and writing them out in calligraphy. I’m tickled pink.

What is something you loved to do as a child before you had your period?