Monthly Archives: April 2013

Lost Cell Phone = Mandatory Unplug Day

The last time I remember having my cell phone in my hands was yesterday during the last hour of church. Later while I was cooking dinner, my brother (visiting from out of town) made a phone call with it and left it on the coffee table. That was yesterday at dinner time and no one has seen it since. We’ve turned the house upside down, looked all the usual cell phone haunts (5+ times) and even searched the unconventional places, too (top of the fridge, kitchen cupboards, makeup bag, under the car) but no dice.

After freaking out, reading every “seek and ye shall find” scripture and trying desperately not to swear (because I’m trying to call in a favor, ya know), here are some radical thought processes I’ve tried to embrace:

  • Trust. I trust I will find my cell phone. I trust I will find my cellphone… well, at least hope. Don’t you get blessings for wanting to trust? 
  • Attract. I was looking at pictures of my phone online. Half tempted to print one out and look at it so the Law of Attraction can help me find my phone. 
  • Release. I suppose it wouldn’t be the end of the world if I had to buy a brand new phone to replace it.  Sure there’s 1500 photos that I never backed up on it… So I found my phone online and added it to my Amazon wish list, just in case. Inconvenient? Yes. Expensive? Yes. The end of the world? No. (Note to self: next time back up your images. And have one of those “locate” apps that starts screaming when you lose your phone.) 
  • Learning. Okay, universe. Apparently this is a sign that I need to unplug from my cell phone for a day. Roger that. I’m okay with that! Just please let me find it afterwards! 
Photo: Samsung

Authenticity vs. Anonymity

For a while I’ve been wanting to talk about things of the soul, speak authentically, and share my story. But when I created Owl Refinery, it was to create a place where I could do this anonymously — I didn’t want my name attached to it. In fact, I was close to just picking an alter ego and blogging under her name instead. (I like the idea of Stella or Penelope.) That said, I feel like I’m always back and forth about this so here are some of my reasons for currently choosing to speak anonymously:

  1. I value privacy. I’m a very private person and only share my heart with my inner circle. I don’t want people who I don’t have personal relationships with to know what’s going on in my life. 
  2. I want to draw a line between personal and professional. The lines between personal and professional are constantly blurring, but there are certain things that I’d prefer to speak about in private rather than sharing with everyone. 

And then there’s part of me who wants more alignment and authenticity in my life. So here’s in favor of authenticity.

  1. I want to be a complete person. Currently I have a professional fashion blog that deal with things more style oriented and this blog for things of the soul. I read blogs from women like Danielle LaPorte, Brene Brown, and even Elizabeth Banks and I yearn to be able to merge my identities in one place and be a complete person. Like the quote from Virginia Woolf above, I want to tell the truth about my life. 
  2. I want to own my ideas. It’s important for me to get recognition for the work that I do and being able to put a face to a name would allow me to have ownership of my ideas online. 
  3. I have an I’m a Mormon video coming out and I want to post it here. Back in November, the I’m a Mormon folks came to Seattle to follow me around for 2 days to create an I’m a Mormon campaign on me. And when it comes out, I really want to be able to share it here. 
Do you blog authentically or anonymously? Or have you found a way to happily marry both?

She Prays

On April 6, 2013, Jean A. Stevens of the Primary Presidency made history as the first women to pray during General Conference.

I couldn’t bring myself to close my eyes. I was riveted. Seeing a woman pray in #ldsconf brought a peaceful feeling of acknowledgment that God knows his daughters & hears our prayers.